my ocean my love deux

Sunrise at Cavendish Beach, PEI. Photo Credit: Velvet Rollin. September 2021.
tomorrow
      now today

sleep did not come
           last night
               too many yearnings
                            too many plans

           he did not sleep either

      i heard him

 anger
     then weeping
                   then sorrow
                             a calm            
                                   moonlit night

       
               i yearned to come to him
           but knew
      i must wait
or he would only suffer more

now
    the sun is rising
                  dawn of a new day
         a new chance at love


he is resting


anticipation high
            dive gear on
                     i slip in

                          of course he notices
                   but today
        he lets me lead

            i follow his contours
                             caress them

                                              in awe

                                light reflecting
                           shimmering
                                    apparelled in living    
                                                      breathing
                                                              beauty

                                 i stop

                   eyes closed

         listen again
                    to his heart
      
                                          beat

              wait

                   feel his body
                                as he slips beside me
                                                      guides me

              our breathing synchronizes again

                                      but my heart
                                                        races

  today
        i can stay
                    can linger
                                can breathe

                   he takes me in
                                      cradles me in his arms
                                  rocks me
                   back and forth
                               caresses me
                                         loves me
                                                  pulls me closer
                                       i feel myself
                       slipping into his depths
                                             his world
                                                     my world
                          drinking deeply of his presence
                   breathing in his love
                        floating
                              weightless
                                           no one
                                      but us
                                  one
                         no limits
              no borders
      no lies

  but one

or two

    i cant stay

                  and it is not love

                                         he is my addiction
                                   just as i am his
               i will stay by his borders
          and visit
      because he has drawn me here
and because
            i need him
                          as much
                                    as he needs me
                            in chains together
                       feeling free
         yet forever imprisoned
   by wanting something
we cannot have

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Velvet Rollin is an author and retreat organizer living off-grid in Grey County, Ontario, in the earth-bermed home she and her family built together. Her writing explores joy, gratitude, and the beauty found in everyday life.

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